Interview With God

My friend forwarded a timely email about interview with God. This couldn't have come at a better timing. My heart just got broken again, by the same person. I needed God to be with me tonight as my heart shed tears. I needed answers to my questions. I needed to sleep beside the Lord to be reassured that tomorrow will be better. I'm just beaten and I need God to cheer me up and put a smile on my face. I know it sounds foolish but it is all I hope for tonight...Him to put me to sleep, sing me a lullaby and whisper to me that everything will work out fine in His time... The Lord's last reply in this interview struck me so hard "I am here with you...Always" The interview

I woke up today remembering the very harsh words that my colleague has told me. CONTROL. I'm the PM and therefore I should be able to control all the things that happened. CONTROL. Yeah, even with budget but TL and QA cannot be found due to time constraints, that's why I have to control the situation and take some risks. Even without so much time, we were able to release a clean 3/4 module in production, and in 2 weeks' time, we haven't got any claims. Isn't that something to be proud of. I was able to control the project constraints and deliver. PM is all about delivering joggling between time, quality and cost. Sure, the journey to that was a messy process and we didn't do the best practices but that was a trade-off I had to take. I was in control of the project objective, even though this is already the 300% utilization of my own time. I sacrificed myself to achieve that goal. This is how a PM should be. He has no right to contain my 10 years PM experience into that one single moment and destroy all that I worked so hard for. I am proud of what we accomplished so far, also I admit that getting there is something that needs to refine, reconsider and improve on.

Did you just put that in my head, Lord? Anyway, thank you for enlightening me.