Concerns For Me

Donal had concerns over how I feel and I am - as a friend and as a colleague. We talked about it over dinner. I actually feel guilty talking about my hang ups when I'm fully aware that he is also compromising his personal life over what we think we need to accomplish.

Greg has been really attentive to me, and he's trying to improve rapport with me. I understand the concerns but I'm really not comfortable with this kind of attention.

I don't know if Tom is aware about it but these two fellows have been putting me in the center of almost every situation.

The days are passing very quickly and I still have so much to reconcile with, my priorities, my life. I woke up today feeling a lump in my left breast. I'm praying that this is not serious, or this is false alarm. I wouldn't want to go under the knife again. I am most certainly not prepared to be sidelined. But I am learning to trust God to tell me what's next. Anything is possible, and last year was a living example of the things that didn't seem possible. I believe that God is good and I am learning to trust in Him more each day, no matter how boring, or depressing or uncertain each day may seem to bring.