Endearing Praises For My EmExile Music Video

I received rave reviews from friends who watched the ChooChoo train video. Another bonus was the Honor it received in YouTube, it ranked #15 in the most viewed for the day on the day I posted it. It still is ranked highly now at #88. These kind words touched me in more ways than the viewers have probably felt. Video editing and storytelling is what my real passion is. Sadly, I'm not as brave as the others who dare take the less traveled road...I do this passion for fun, as a hobby, to honor those who held my heart in each moment that I spent with them. It is really them I should be thanking, for without these meaningless, and sometimes even dull moments, I wouldn't have inspiration to tell 'OUR STORY'. That is what I'm most grateful for.

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I feel sorry that there was snowstorm last weekend and our Snowboard trip turned out to be Eat, Sleep and Play Pingpong all the way up north! Saturday morning's weather was perfect in contrast to the scary afternoon strong wind and blizzards. We got caught at the top of the mountain and there was no other way than to work our day way down. Surprisingly, I was not that scared. Sometimes adversity really do make a MAN out of anyone. What bothered me was frostbite, I thought I had it in my fingers. One of our companions got scared and we waited and waited for her at the fork of the slope but she was nowhere. All the guys took off their boards and climbed their way up to the top again. I remained and waited, and waited, and waited. The wind was literally howling and I couldnt see anything, add to that the snow flakes as not flakes anymore, they are solid hard rock-like the size of sea salts. It was painful. My wrists were tremendously aching because the ice are starting to form at the opening of my hand gloves. Finally, and luckily, Jeff came and told me that the rest were coming soon. When everybody got there, our next feat was to work our way thru an almost zero visibility slope at a 20 m/s wind speed. Even as I was braking and edging, the wind was blowing me away! It was frustrating. When I try to sit down and rest, the chunks of snow just bangs against my back. Add to my dilemma the fact that my goggles were all moist and foggy that I couldnt see anything thru. My only option was to take it if off and expose my face to the blizzard. We all managed to go down without major physical damages, but as I think about it now, I discovered something about myself - I am so much stronger that I give myself credit for, especially when faced with adversity and I can rise above something to give stability and hope, and stop panic to others. (Whew~ I just placed myself up a pedestal without shame! ahahahaha) .

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I've never been talking about T much in this blog. For many reasons, one was- I'm not sure what to say, another thing was- I've written so much about HB in this site and in the process exposed all my emotions, practically unshielded my heart and finally admitted that I gave up on him. But I guess, the truth is, I am a lot more careful now about putting all my bets on something that has no guarantee. They say you'll never be truly happy if you are too careful, but I know myself now and I know that I need to love myself unconditionally, my good and bad me, in order to be truly happy and to truly be capable of loving. Right now, I'm rediscovering that path, getting to know me, and getting to know the real T as well.

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I've been recently a Brothers & Sisters avid fan, and what I look forward most is the ending song 都会の天使たちへ featuring Tetsuya Bessho>> click me! It makes me cry all the time. (Apologies guys, this is in Japanese). The plot is simple and very real that one can easily relate to any one of the Walker family members. Brothers & Sisters is a story about a big family of grown ups, their own struggles thru life, their little triumphs, and behind everything and anything is the love of family. My Dad would still scold me for watching too much drama, but hey, it pays to shed out some tears. And family is always a very dear subject for me.