Mood Swings

I am having these mood swings again. I am again struggling with keeping my guts at a level. Major casualty is T. I blame myself but I guess the downside of being too close, and living together is you feel so at ease with each other that everything feels and looks normal and you start to take things for granted. Where are all wisdom I have gained? And the funny thing about life is it has its twists and turns that no matter how you play out the different scenarios in my mind, you still wind up in a situation where you do not have a grip..In the absence of the bright and white light, in the meantime...I guess I will just have to get by a day at a time.