A couple more days and 2009 will be just a memory away. The year opened with a bang, what more can I ask for celebrating it with my boyfriend who chose to spend the new year with me than his family. It was certainly one of the most memorable New Year's of my life. I thought that we finally have settled but turned out I was fooling mysel as T started to cheat and lied to me over and over again. The truth hurt but I just gotta face it and it could have been the hardest decision yet but I had to let him go. But then again at work, I have delivered what I promised when I joined the company last December. It was very challenging and fulfilling. Yet, I wasn't elated because I was deep into my depression that my personal life once more sucks. K-kun helped me go through a lot. I can never thank him enough. I probably wouldn't have been able to reach this far - sanely, if not for him. But I did..And two days before I say goodbye the good and bad of 2009, I am definitely ready to let T and his memories go. I am not ready to honestly forgive him. And I lied that I was ready to be friends. Someday maybe I will be both, maybe if a new love, a stronger love comes along the way, one that will wash away all the tears, the heartbreaks and disappointments. I would like to believe that there's a real one out there and I can't wait for it to find me.
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