I dont remember if I had a good night's sleep or not. Is that odd? But my body clock (as adaptive as ever) woke me up at around 7am today. I'm still a bit sore from badminton, and partially tired from all of last week's partying. Still feeling lazy, I grabbed my iphone and opened facebook. Tsk tsk, it's becoming a nasty habit in the morning. Then I decided to get up, prepared my gym bag for tonight's yoga, took my laundry in, and laid out today's wardrobe. Afterwards, a cup of coffee, toothbrush and shower. My hair stylist taught me the easy way to style my (recently) permed hair and so today I took extra 10 minutes for styling and make up. I like the finish product! During my solitary commute to the office, my mind just automatically drifts back to my relationship with T. I start to wonder why T just threw away the relationship that we worked so hard for in the beginning. I don't want to be upset on a Monday morning so I force my mind to think of work instead - today's schedule, today's goals. I know that only time will heal things and that the scars will be permanently there to remind me (and to sometimes make me laugh because of the stupid things I did for love). I know that it will suck day after day after day, for a while - who knows how long. But I decided that I have to rise above it. I have to be a better person. I have to like myself more. I have to know what I want and stand up for it. It's gonna be tough, but someone once said 'what doesn't kill you will make you stronger'. I'm still up and standing, so what I can do now is to be stronger and better. And this will start today.
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