Snowboarding Accident

Gomachan, Mika, Samantha, Kura-san and I drove to Kusatsu Onsen Ski resort in Gunma. The morning was fine and we were in our usual elements and this guy bumped into me and sent me flying about half a meter away. I was fine. Then Mika said on our way back to the top, that her cousin met her husband through the same accident. They exchanged contact info and then, as they say, the rest was history. We were joking about bumping into someone and asking if that someone is single or not, and if the person looks good. If not, we'll just say, sorry 'wrong bump!'.

Around 3pm we finished our short break and told each other that we'll take about 2-3 more rounds. So we took the gondola and started our way down. Everything was normal, although I was geting a little concerned about the crowd getting heavier. It was a 'black' run but its not difficult and I've done it several times before in the morning and in the afternoon. I decided to put on more speed because I thought that if I'm too scared to practice jumps today (because its too icy) I might as well work on my balance in order to increase speed.

I was sitting down and this stranger was to my left talking to me asking me if I'm ok. I told him 'I have no memory'. Everything was confusing. Then rescuers came, and I think I heard this stranger told them, she has no memory. They asked me my name, I told them my name. And then they asked me, who are you with? Kura-san's face registered in my brain so I said I'm with my friends. But I got even more confused. I don't remember Kura-san picked me from home. Later I remember it was Goma-chan who did and then we headed to Mika's home where Samantha and Kura-san would also come and meet us.

The rescuers then asked me where do you live? That's where I panicked. I don't remember wher I lived. I told myself, try to remember how your house looks like. I cant. And then that's when I started to call for T. I'm wondering where he is. why isn't he beside me. And then my mind told me, no, no,no something happened between you and T. I was so confused and all the while they were carrying me down, I was trying hard to remember, and then something sank. T and I broke up. I initially rejected the thought, I told myself, no we didn't...And then my mind told me, you broke up with him because he cheated on you. At that time, we were down the slopes and they transfered me to the ambulance. Samantha went with me. I was panicking because I couldn't remember what happened, where I lived and everything seemed hazy.

Finally at the hospital, the doctor did some checkups, had me to undergo ECG and CTI. Results were ok,I had no brain damage, no blood clot and my blood pressure was normal. He said that the most probable explanation why I dont have any memory is that I bumped my head. He said that most people who had this kind of accident never recover the memory of the accident and the 1st hour after that. He then put me in a 24 observation.

OK. 1st. Lanye's right. Be careful what you wish for, it ay come true. But not in the way you fantasize about it.

2nd. What does this accident tell me? BE CAREFUL.

3rd. What else? It scares me that even with memory loss and extreme trauma, my frst thought was T. I forgot where live, who I was with, but he of all people was the first person who came to min. What does this mean? That I probably will never forget him??? Up until now, I never realized how deeply my love and the trust for him is. That when it comes to neardeath experiences, he will be the 1st person and probably the last to remain in my memory. It's sad...