Nagoya 12 years after

Nagoya has always been one of my most unforgettable places in the world. 12 years ago I kissed someone good bye not knowing that it would be the last time I would lay eyes on him. I hugged tightly the 1st great love of my life and was in a rush to make the flight. We stayed at a business hotel the night before but for some reason, I don't remember what, I almost did not make the flight. It was the kind of goodbye that you actually wished you'd have a take two. Everything was rush, there was no moment to absorb the two words - good bye. There was not a split second to look at those very expressive eyes for the last time. It was just that...

As I'm writing this blog, tears just fell out. I don't love Sunya anymore but the memories of that 1st great love, the wonderful moments we shared together and the petty fights we had which thinking about it, 12 years after, really makes me feel so silly, the memories awaken from a very far place in my heart. Come to think of it, I have never spoken about Sunya to any of my friends, to anybody for that matter, until now. Nagoya has opened up pandora's door. Yes, tears are falling down, but the strange thing is, there is no bitterness. Without me knowing it, I really have accepted that great great things do come to an end.

It took me 12 years to talk bring Sunya outside of my receded memory, and it took another trip to Nagoya airport to remind me of that one place in time where I was hopelessly, completely in love, for the first time, with a boy who had the most expressive eyes, the sweetest lips, the most tender hands, and the biggest romantic I have ever met. It took me 12 years to remember the lessons he taught me about falling in love and staying there.

My life would probably be totally different had we not have that one last goodbye at Nagoya airport. Maybe it turned out for the best, or maybe not. I will never know. All I know is that because of this boy, I knew how precious it is to have love, and how lucky was I to be loved.

12 years after, I still find myself looking for that next great love. I dearly pray to the Lord that I it finds me real soon.