I stretched the limits of my physical abilities yesterday. The payback is a very tired body that only wanted to spend the day in bed. But given that today is a Wednesday, that's not possible. Not to mention that this is a critical month to launch the biggest project of my professional career to date. Then again, since I know that I cannot accomplish much in the office in the morning, I decided to lay a bit longer and turn in late. Well, this is the beauty of my professional environment. I'm free to manage my own time.
In the midst of watching a video tape of 2010 Badminton World championships rerun, I started to wonder what I've been doing in my life. Watching the match is part of prepping up for my 'side job' which is to cover the 2010 Japan Yonex Open next week. I remember I wanted to be a journalist. In a way, I am now.
Realizing that I should be really getting up, I finally went in the shower and again my sleepy mind wandered. What is it that I'm really doing with my life? I messed up my romantic relationships by trying too hard and now I'm showering alone and in the quiet moment, I realized that in a month's time, my biggest professional achievement is so close to becoming a reality. I've worked for this moment for a long time and although the ride is bumpy, I was thrilled that it will finally come true. Knowing me, I will not let anything stop me from releasing the project on time.
When I'm tired like today, I am always tempted to go back to where I used to be - with house help that will do everything for me, so I don't need to worry about domestic housekeeping and maintenance. But then I also realized in the end that as frustrated as I get sometimes, I still come out of it satisfied that I did my best, that I did not hold back, and that perhaps the ride is worth the hassle. Then it hits me...I'm very lucky to be living my dream. I dreamed of balanced professional success and the personal time to meet the world, and be interested in the wonderful things that this world has to offer. I dreamed of becoming a writer and I am one now. I have financial security, very good friends and have a family that sucks! So OK, I'm still working on finding my way to that MR RIGHT, but it makes for dreaming some more.
So...for today, I'll go through my To Do list and believe in the higher power of goodness and bash in the satisfaction of living most of my dreams.
In the midst of watching a video tape of 2010 Badminton World championships rerun, I started to wonder what I've been doing in my life. Watching the match is part of prepping up for my 'side job' which is to cover the 2010 Japan Yonex Open next week. I remember I wanted to be a journalist. In a way, I am now.
Realizing that I should be really getting up, I finally went in the shower and again my sleepy mind wandered. What is it that I'm really doing with my life? I messed up my romantic relationships by trying too hard and now I'm showering alone and in the quiet moment, I realized that in a month's time, my biggest professional achievement is so close to becoming a reality. I've worked for this moment for a long time and although the ride is bumpy, I was thrilled that it will finally come true. Knowing me, I will not let anything stop me from releasing the project on time.
When I'm tired like today, I am always tempted to go back to where I used to be - with house help that will do everything for me, so I don't need to worry about domestic housekeeping and maintenance. But then I also realized in the end that as frustrated as I get sometimes, I still come out of it satisfied that I did my best, that I did not hold back, and that perhaps the ride is worth the hassle. Then it hits me...I'm very lucky to be living my dream. I dreamed of balanced professional success and the personal time to meet the world, and be interested in the wonderful things that this world has to offer. I dreamed of becoming a writer and I am one now. I have financial security, very good friends and have a family that sucks! So OK, I'm still working on finding my way to that MR RIGHT, but it makes for dreaming some more.
So...for today, I'll go through my To Do list and believe in the higher power of goodness and bash in the satisfaction of living most of my dreams.
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