Is it time?

Within the past year, I have regained (if not expanded) friendships, and discovered new interesting things originally because I didn't want to be alone and I dreaded the thought of having time to think and remember heart aches.

To name a few, I have

1. rediscovered my passion for badminton (my life saver!)

2. climbed mountains again

3. been going out with friends more often

4. is into photography

5. got my scuba diving license

6. have all the time for snowboarding, tennis, basketball and other interesting things that I can put my hands on.

I'm barely home. But modesty aside, I still manage to keep my home nice and clean and homey. I love being at home and taking care of it. I still miss my Nerima home, very much, although I'm getting to know my new home a bit at a time. Sometimes I long for sleep. Sometimes I long for someone to make me slow down, and just take easy on a Sunday morning, as they say.

Most of my friends are pushing me, telling me it's about time to get into a new relationship. Not that there's one that's really close by to seriously think about it, but sometimes I'm scared that if I get into another one, I'll be the same old me - just following around, waiting for something to do based on what my partner feels like doing. Yep, the strong woman in me goes away and I usually exist for another person. I don't want to be that person anymore.

Some of my friends are wondering though, that if I get into relationship, they're asking me what will happen to my new hobbies? I won't have time for photography, I won't be able to move on with the golf lesson, what about the dream of joining Tokyo marathon next year? Hmm....I don't know too. They say that the next person should be someone like me - someone who has many interests, many friends, and confident enough to let me be me.

I'm kinda hoping the same thing.