Need to wrap around my thoughts

Honestly, I have been distracted lately with the obsession of trying to live a balanced life, that it feels that I'm not doing what I do best - that is to pour out everything and all my passion into my work. There's always two sides of the coin, yes, that will always be an argument. But I finally figured out for myself that each of us has our very own definition and measurement scale of how we should live a balanced life. Being mediocre reduces my self-worth, at least that's what I honestly feel. I want to rekindle that fire that kept me going, going and going throughout the past 13 years of my professional career. It's good that I have a new 'arch rival' so to speak. He inspires me to be up on my toes again, ready for some good old fashion psychological race towards the top. For now, I wanna wrap around my thoughts to being who I really am - competitive, stubborn, highly emotional, and really great at what I do (if I put my heart into it)! whether it is at play or at work. The love life will come at the right time and I'm pretty excited to know if the next one will be for keeps.