Jakarta Open 2007

Jakarta Open 2007, originally uploaded by setyr.

The moment I stepped into the Jakarta Open badminton arena, I felt terribly bad. I have given up the sport that I have come to love so much, well for work but mostly to be with the one person that is also very close to my heart. Sometimes, especially during the tougher times like this, I wonder and doubt whether I had made the right life choices or not. My work sucks. I hate my job. I hate the way things are. I hate the way some people treat me at work. I miss my family and friends. I miss badminton so much. These are things I have traded for what???

But as I watch tonight's TV show about young kids whose lives are a living mess, I again felt guilty and meaningless. They do their best, in spite of being poor, of the unfairness of their tender young lives, just to live and get food on the family table. Whereas I am whining here, complaining about my comfortable life. I pray to God that I would have the strength and wisdom to somehow use these trying moments of my life, and transform it into something positive and worthwhile. I wanna help. I know I can. I know I have to.