Getting Worse

My head is still spinning and it gets worse each day. I don't know what to do to stop the splitting headache that is now retreating further down my head. I'm tempted to say what did I do to deserve this? But at the same time, I know that the bad health this year is really due to my wrongdoing and self-abuse. My stupid way of getting revenge, and instead of hurting other people, I hurt myself. I suck.