The Week That Has Been

I haven't been blogging for a while. I guess my health took the most priority this February. I needed to rid myself of the hay fever (pollen allergy) and I had to rush back to Manila for a week to undergo series of tests - my lumps returned. Funny thing is, I'm not as worried, not as scared as the first time in 2002. I'm a little stressed because I really don't want to go under the knife again. I wouldn't be able to expose my naked self to anyone if this happens again! Ahahaha, I know I sound crazy~ as ever.

I did go out with BP colleagues the week before I went to PH - Tera, Sakurai, Taiju, Seiji, Tomo-san. I got valuable advises from none other than Seiji!~ Would you believe that beneath my weird-looking, mysterious IT friend is a caring and mature adult! See, you can never really judge a book by it's cover! I wasn't asking for it but I got unsolicited advise regarding who else, but HB. He said he understands both of us, and he said that I should learn to grow faster than HB to make this work out....

Monday dinner with my old CP team would probably be one of the funniest and most memorable bloopers I will ever experience in life. We invited the wrong person and he came together with his gf! The real Jasper didn't have any idea that we were having a small get-together at Dad's! Ahahha, life oh life.

Tuesday, I had dinner with Marla, Sam, Mhyke and Nhards. Congratulations dear evil-step sis Marla, finally finally you're walking down the aisle! Although it breaks my heart that our evil sisterhood is but a memory now, I also am very happy for you. A promise is a promise and I promise to be there on your wedding day!

Wednesday, my Valentine date with my forever friends Joan, Roland, Emman, Norla and Jenny. It was a single's night out in Serembra at the Fort. I devoured Krispy Kreme and enjoyed taking (foolish) souvenir pictures just because it's currently a big hit here in Japan! Hahaha. Cynthia, who at the time was in Bulacan, was panicking because she got the impression that I am getting married, that Emma is living with a boyfriend, and that Norla will be in her wedding. It was funny and heartwarming at the same time because she really do care about all of us, but she's also afraid to be alone. Cynch, we are still here, very much single and we're always gonna be your friend no matter where we are!

Thursday is a reunion day with old Trenders Jason, Sherille and Orson. We dined at Kaya and as usual chatted and updated each other. People haven't really changed so much, although unfortunately, Patrick wasn't available, we still had our share of 'green talks' at Starbucks which started with me telling everyone that I know how to bake cakes. You can guess how that conversation went with these green smarties hahaha!

Friday was a chance to finally hang around with the real Jasper and so I, Lanye, Agdie, Blesh and Jasper with our little TW guess Danny and Romeo from TS listened to Nyoy at Eastwood. I'm glad to hear that Jasper's life is slowly falling into the right places.

Saturday was an early date with Sis Cathy, she didn't have time to really meet me and so we agreed to just meet in the morning. Afternoon was my flight. My two brothers are busy (apparently) with their own lives. Hmm....they've really grown up. Buboy is graduating this March, I'm really so glad. Jaybee is doing well and really striving hard to be part of the team who will do their OJT in Singapore next school year. I only want the best for my siblings and I'm glad and proud that they are beginning to find their rightful spots in the adult world. Cathy, on the other hand, wonders why the lumps keep on coming to me but not to her and Angie. Of course I didn't say anything, but as the elder sister, I would rather have it than them....

Sunday I spent a lot of time in my bed and finished A Time To Kill. I've rediscovered my passion for pocket books of late and it's proving to be addictive!

Earlier today I had a meeting with HB. He never met my eyes, not even once. I was looking at him while he looked away and strange that I saw hollowness. I admit that for a while I searched and hoped to find something in those eyes, but there weren't. Thinking about it now, I might have been looking inside myself, trying to decide whether there's still something I can give. It was not hard to find the answer - I have nothing more to offer. My health issues have made me realized that my life and my health and my very own individual existence matter and I don't want to lose myself in depression from work and from the heartaches and struggles we had. I just had nothing more to give. Or rather, I don't want to give my limited time and fragile heart to someone who would let it fall.