Keep The Good Memories Alive....Oh but they're dead.

My friend recently suggested that one way to move on is to think that T has died and keep all the good memories we had together in my heart, knowing that he's not coming back. Well, as desperate as I am, I did. But what I can remember now are the bad times, the horrible truths, the painful discovery, and how unfair he was. In return I get sleepless nights and tears just fall down again. So, ok this approach doesn't work. I'm off to the next. I'll never be more than glad to be really toxic at work again. I honestly hope that these good memories will someday resurrect in my heart for I don't want to forever feel bad about wasting my 2 years away like that. For now, forget!