I must admit that ever since T & I separated, I probably have not watched a single night time Japanese TV show. I find the morning shows boring and uninteresting so I also have stopped watching it as well. This maybe a bit damaging to my Japanese skills and when I get home and I have no one to talk to I again wonder if my Japanese skills is degrading. But then again I think about my day and how much Japanese I speak at work, and I get a bit updated by my Japanese friends (and even foreign friends) about what's happening in the world. So sometimes I don't worry about it too much. I've been singing in the shower lately, my thing sometime ago, which I stopped doing when I shared a home with T, for obvious reasons. I walk around the house naked and I don't need to take care or consider another person. My life now is pretty much the same as before T. Oh...but I'd take that away. My life now is still a shadow of what I used to be, but with some pluses ...lots of friends to be with, and lots of things to do. So, I'd like to think that even though I have no one to talk to at night, or to share silly stories of how my day has been, I am not alone. And I don't need to be afraid to be alone.