Love your body

Since I got depression anxiety a few years back, I really wasn't able to return to my early 20s figure. I've never been called fat or big (no thanks to T for emotinally damaging me), instead I was called skinny, malnourish from time to time. I worked most of my life to get my body bigger but then for the past 4 years my size has been shrinking and then ballooning again. The thinnest I got was 46kilos and I probably won't be reaching my ideal 40 kilos anymore, partly because of the muscle volume I've accummulated over the years. My goal is to keep my weight to 45 kilos and now I'm dangerously dancing between 47 and 48kilos. I don't love my body now. I'm not comfortable with it.

But then last night, a thought came to me while I was in the steam sauna. In order to love my body I need to take action, not drastic but just about the right amount to keep me motivated and see results. I'm also thinking of getting some help in order to get rid of the cellulites that encapsulates the fat that I should be easily burning.

So...instead of wasting my time trying to forget the past, I'm bravely bracing myself to set on a mission to take the journey to go to that place when I'm comfortable and I'm loving my body.

My action plan...

• continue the routine facials.
• experiments on body scrubs that helps moisturize (think of scrubbing as another physical activity that contributes to the end goal)
• limit weeknight parties to 1-2 a week.
• really devote time to yoga, kickshape, swimming and start to run (i.e. admit the fact that the shoulders are too weak for upper body machine /dumbels)
• split the weekends for housekeeping and outdoor activities.
• have time to be quiet and be at peace with yourself (maybe do it in the steam sauna, or in the bathtub...?)
• utilize available technology to help kill those cellulites ...use endomology.