I remember when I was young and stressing about my baby tooth that was about to fall off, but wouldn't. I would cheat and try to gently pull it but it was so stubborn that even though it's been dangling it won't oblige. Then one day, I was walking and without any warning, the stubborn baby tooth fell off. There wasn't any pain at all, it was not what I was anticipating.
Now that I'm grown up, I finally realized that anticipation has so much more color, excitement, or stress, depending on what rules our emotions at a specific point in time. Anticipating something, imagining something is actually larger than life, an overstatement. I forgot my house key in the office and I couldn't go back to pick it up, so I needed to get T's key. Yes, 363 days he kept it. I was tired and beat with the chaos that's been happening in the office and I met him at his office's station to pick it up. I looked horrible, was hungry and tired, in short it wasn't my best appearance. But I got the key, plain and simple and walked away. He tried to be animated but strangely, it was pure black and white for me. I finally got the key to my life back. That's it plain and simple. To think I was imagining how emotional that day would be when it comes.
Yes, God has a crooked sense of humor but as I think about it now, amidst the still ongoing chaos in the office, my heart hopes that God wants me to start clean if I would ever start a relationship with another person. Not that I have someone in sight now. But what do you lose with hope? Then again, I turn back to my first paragraph, anticipating is an over statement.
Bottom line. I've been pushed to move on.
Now that I'm grown up, I finally realized that anticipation has so much more color, excitement, or stress, depending on what rules our emotions at a specific point in time. Anticipating something, imagining something is actually larger than life, an overstatement. I forgot my house key in the office and I couldn't go back to pick it up, so I needed to get T's key. Yes, 363 days he kept it. I was tired and beat with the chaos that's been happening in the office and I met him at his office's station to pick it up. I looked horrible, was hungry and tired, in short it wasn't my best appearance. But I got the key, plain and simple and walked away. He tried to be animated but strangely, it was pure black and white for me. I finally got the key to my life back. That's it plain and simple. To think I was imagining how emotional that day would be when it comes.
Yes, God has a crooked sense of humor but as I think about it now, amidst the still ongoing chaos in the office, my heart hopes that God wants me to start clean if I would ever start a relationship with another person. Not that I have someone in sight now. But what do you lose with hope? Then again, I turn back to my first paragraph, anticipating is an over statement.
Bottom line. I've been pushed to move on.
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