I Must Be Out Of My Mind

I chatted with an HR specialist today and I was surprised to hear what I have heard.

Honestly I don't know where your dissatisfaction is coming from. This salary, the interesting job you have, plus the freedom of time and the capacity to balance work and play, it is rare to have what you have. It feels like a waste if you want to give them up.

I was just as surprised to hear myself answering back:

Yes I supposed so if you put it that way. The problem is I feel my life has been stagnant. Yes, everyday is fun and comfortable but I need chaos to spark the fire within me. I risk losing some or all of what I have now, but I don't know if I want or need what I have now.

I am 100% not confident that I know what I want and need that is why there always is a shadow of doubt lingering. Maybe it is not the smartest move to get out of my comfort zone. But having no passion for doing stuffs is like living with a hollow soul. I really must be crazy.