Yes I think in some ways he has changed. I have changed a lot too. I'm not the same person he used to know. He probably is not the same person I threw away. We probably changed for the better. Maybe the purpose of it all is to change us both. In a way I hold a bit of a grudge to God because he left the 'growing pains' part to me and let another person reap the rewards.
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Got my CTScan results today. The doctor said 'there's lump..should we do an echo?'. Unbelievable. We know there's a lump (we can tell by touching) that's why we did the CTScan. They should have asked me to do both from the beginning, they have my medical history, I expected them to act a bit faster. I'm OK doing both, I get to spend the same amount of money but it's the time I am concerned. But there's no point in getting angry or further frustrating myself so I obliged. I'm a bit worried though that if I need a major surgery, my business venture in PH would have to be pushed to a later date. Either way, I'm scheduled for a minor surgery on March 10 so I will definitely miss at least 1 month of swimming lesson. Very unfortunate because I've made huge progress swimming this month.
I don't want to make this unexpected twist un-focus me from this year's goals. Swimming. Diving Certification. Driver's License (+car). A business venture. Promotion(cross-fingers) House??? I'm not sure yet, a big part of me is attached to the house I live in now. I can't find the courage to let go.
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